What am I doing?
What is the point?
Is it worth it?
I feel like I often challenge myself with these questions. I don’t do it because I’m upset, worried, or anxious. I do it because I’m afraid. I’m fearful I won’t become the person I aspire to be. I’m fearful I won’t accomplish what I set out to accomplish. I’m fearful I won’t be the person to others that I want to be…
I have to remind myself that the simple fact I’m asking myself these questions to begin with is enough to signify that I am living as the person I aspire to be, that I will accomplish what I set out to accomplish, and that I am to others what I want to be. The process of pursuing our potential is a bumpy one, and it certainly doesn’t come without its doubts.
I find it so comforting that the best in the world have their doubts and their fears. It’s part of being human.
Even though I remind myself of this, it still doesn’t stop the fears and the doubts from occurring. I think anyone that truly pursues their best self is accustomed to these feelings. It’s not that they don’t have these thoughts, but rather that they get better at managing them and seeing them for what they truly are.... indications of growth.
I believe that those opting for the pursuit of meaning and purpose in their life often encounter more obstacles than those that settle for a life of complacency and “fitting in” with the crowd. I take solace in this deeply-held belief whenever I encounter an obstacle along my journey…
It’s easy to get caught up in the “linear” trajectory of success that so many of us want to believe in. It’s not that simple. There are twists and turns along the way, many of which we could never foresee or plan for. They just happen… exactly how they are supposed to happen… and when they are supposed to happen.
There is no such thing as “right” or “wrong” when pursuing your best self. There is only a matter of what feels best to you. It’s a personal endeavor, even if you have selfless intentions. It must feel right to you, and only to you, at the end of the day.
If, however at the end of the day, you find yourself asking the same questions that I so often do to myself, find comfort in knowing you are certainly heading in the right direction.